HIATUS

I’m planning on closing this blog…(aww….3 years lang pala ang buhay ng DUQ..T_T)..but for those who like to read the past entries, I’ll leave it open.

I’ll be posting stuff on my Livejournal Account. Kita-kits!

Career Oriented.

Last week, we had our ORIENT2..a development class where we get to figure out what we want to do after college. Stuff about job hunting, what you really wanted to be. It really got me thinking if still wanted to be an engineer..well, the title of Engr. before your name sounds nice and all and ECE is an attractive (high-paying?) profession…but then I realized that I wanted to be a Graphic Designer….and I shouldn’t have minded back then after High School that I need to go Benilde to take Multimedia Arts and end up having a low paying (but fullfilling?) job. Maybe that’s really what I wanted to be since..or…

I just have this undying urge to be different from everyone else…

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Even casual conversations make me think about where I’m currently standing. When conversations start to take a technical turn…I feel left behind. Maybe my friends don’t realize it, but hearing them talk makes me realize that they’re really cut out to be an engineer…no matter what their test cores or GPAs are. They have certain qualities and skills that make them fit to be an engineer. One of then is very meticulous with regards to details..some of them very analytical…others’ math naturals…(Me? I preffer the arts..currently..)…you may not understand, dear reader, but try spending several terms with these people and you’ll realize what I have.

I may have satisfactory grades compared to them, but I’m now thinking twice If I’m fit to be an engineer. I’m careless, clumsy, not-math-oriented…heck, I’m even starting to get lazy. I get high grades in NON-ENGINEERING SUBJECTS and mediocre grades on the other hand. I’m a 4th year engineering student and I DON’t even have a breadboard. I don’t like assembling circuits because I’m afraid they won’t work. I don’t like computing because I’m afraid my computations are wrong. I’d rather prepare papers than do electronic projects.

As for mangerial careers…at this rate, I think I’m not even fit to be a leader. I’m poor in delegating work..I can’t make people work..it’s either I do most of the work, Or I get a bit bossy. I crack under pressure (or is it a manifestation of another problem..hmm), I lack people skills, I don’t like mingling with people….I would rather follow assigned tasks. I have a hard time expressing myself and my thoughts….I have a hard time getting my points across…I say the wrong things most of the time…(nyeta…ayoko nang maging leeeeder)

I am soo the most frustrated,insecure and nega person in the world… 

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 and that’s probably why I’m having a hard time with people around me. They find me TOO negative. Too pessimistic..

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The law of Ueki states..

“When you do not have the talent for a certain [job], you just have to work thrice as hard to make up for the lack of talent you have..”

Busy.Busy.Busy.

There are a lot of things keeping me busy these days…and I think they’re for the wrong reasons.

The (Wrong) Reasons:

1.ECES

    Not that I’m saying its wrong..I chose to be active (and busy) in the first place by applying and being accepted as an AVP. But its taking too much of my time. Recently, we had our annual recruitment week, and of course we had to set up the booth, call for members and stuff (hmm, come to think of it I only helped in the set-up twice, but I manned the membership!)..and now we’re going to have or General Assembly, where it is required for each committee to shoot a movie trailer (The theme for the GA is Hollywood Movies). The movie our VP chose was Pirates of the Carribean, and of course I can’t be Kira Nightly’s <SP> character…duuh..and I don’t want to dress up as a villain either. Such as hassle to bring costumes and stuff. Don’t get me wrong~! It takes up my time, but it is fun, fullfiling, at least I got my social network a bit expanded.

The picture was the freshman welcoming activity…we had to create a whole wall of waling-waling out of crepe paper.^^

    
 2. Green and White
    Talk about being costly and time-consuming. Well it was our fault for not fixing requirements earlier, but we didn’t just have the time to, with academics and laziness and all. There was really a hype about the yearbook. Everyone was running back and forth typing requirements in notepad, finding someone to write their write-ups, and TAKING PICTURES~! I used to be excited when people want to take pictures but if I encounter another person with a camera I might just bash their heads with it. I mean, EVERYBODY HAS GONE PICTURE CRAZY!!! People were asking us to make collages for their 3R pictures…well, I volunteered myself to these people, thinking that I’m up for the job. In the end I just got a bit disappointed because I realize that I really wasn’t that good in photoshop yet…and this certain someone is WAY BETTER than I am. Anyway, for those who don’t know what I look like, this was one of the pictures I submitted for the yearbook. And BTW, the yearbook costs 2,400, and the photo package I chose costs 1,100 smackeroos..that’s a lot of money.
 
 
3. Tambay
 
    I don’t really play DotA, but my friends do. And I like hanging out with them, so I end up watching them play DotA..until 9 pm. I’m supposed to be at home studying, doing assignments, reading up on thesis material and stuff, but no. Pinapanood ko silang magdota. If I’m not doing this, I’m with Char, Crissy and Noel disturbing them while their editing their thesis when I’m supposed to be doing mine. Or if not, I’m just haging out with them at the tambayan, sharing stories and jokes about lovelives, being gay, dotA, Accounting, anything…Imbes na gumagawa ng project…Galing no?
 
They’re not really wrong….but I think that I’m getting too distracted right now. I’m wasting precious time on stuff that is not really a priority. Now we’re even too ashamed to show my face to our thesis adviser because we’re being too idle when we’re supposed to be doing stuff for our thesis. Right now we haven’t even checked if our project is working because everybody is busy doing Green and White stuff and no one really had the initiative to do it, even me. Comparing myself today from myself last term,or last year, i’m really too DISTRACTED.
 
Said the guy from the Person Marketing seminar of the ECES Career Executive Series:
“Serious People only work with Serious People. If your friends aren’t serious, then you should start telling them to be one…”
 
I seriously NEED to focus. And I’m starting right now….not that I’m neglecting my duties in the Org or being KJ or anything, I just need to set my priorities straight, and have myself checked up figuratively and literally, kasi ang plema ko isang linggo na.
 
Okay, maybe not right now..And by the way, I love this picture (Salamat sa pic, Chi).
 

 Guys, gawa na tayo ng thesis. Kakahiya na kay Sir Emmgon.

Landmark by Night

Hehe, naalala ko lang yung dating title nung Maynila sa Kuko ng Liwanag. Napagtanto (lalim) ko na mas maganda palang mag-blog sa tagalog para maka-relate ng tagalog na experiences. Pero with that aside..

 Sino dito naka-punta na ng Landmark? Malamang lahat na kayo naka-punta dun, kasi madalas dun ang bilihan ng mga Filipino Costumes na kailangan pag linggo ng wika nung Grade School..or kung hindi, nakakain na kayo malamang sa food court nun. Pero nakapunta na ba kayo dun ng Gabi? As in pasarado na yung department store.

Ako oo. Malamang, kaya ko nga sinulat tong entry na to eh. Nagaka-yayaan sa Landmark para lustayin yung gift check na natanggap ng nanay ko. Nung tapos na kaming mamili, bumababa kami sa food court, at bumungad samin to..

 Kung nagtratrabaho sa Makati ang inyong mga ina, ay malamang naranasan niya narin ito. Para naman sa mga hindi nakaka-alam, pag-pasara na ang Landmark at hindi parin ubos ang tinapay ng French Baker, ay binebenta nila ito ng Half-Price (Kesa nga naman malugi sila diba?). Siyempre, ang mga tao, mahilig sa discounts, lalo na yung mga ganitong tipong discounts.

So hindi sila magkanda-ugaga sa pag-pila. Seryoso, merong isang pamilya, putek dalawa ata silang pumila don para maka-Manny Pacquiao ng mga tinapay.

Para sa mga hindi naniniwala, eto po yung picture ng pila. Siguro na-weweirdohan na sakin yung mga tao kasi nag-pipicture ako dun. Sa totoo lang, ayokong pumila dito, pero sabi ng Nanay at Tatay ko pumila ako. No choice diba?

Pero hindi lahat pwedeng sumugod sa French Baker pag-pasara na ang Landmark. Parang Adjustment sa La Salle, may number din ito. Pang-15 na ata ako..sa bandang dulo na kasi merong mga pamilyang pumipila.  (more…)

Summer is Over: A Tribute

Alas, today is summer’s last day. We already have classes tommorrow, and I can’t just slack off and let the summer syndrome linger, because we have to take care of our thesis. (Right now, we still haven’t got a TOPIC, which is A VERY SERIOUS MATTER. Poor us..T_T)

So, as a tribute to SY 2005-2006 Summer Term, I’m posting This entry. As you all know I had summer classes, I took up a religion subject so that we could get our thesis done, supposedly. What happened though, was that this whole subject took up our time, and we weren’t able to do our thesis, except of course for a little consultation here and there. Might as well didn’t take up summer classes…T_T

 Anyway…

 On to the summer rampage..
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Pressured

Nakaka-asar, wala palang autosave tong blog na to. Badtrip. Ulit Type.

Galing ang aking nanay sa Leyte para i-celebrate ang 1st death anniversary ng aking lola (O diba bongga, pati death anniversary cine-celebrate?). Siyempre may kainan, tapos chikahan sa mga kamag-anakan namin sa Leyte. Kumakain kami kanina tapos biglang sinabi ng nanay ko..

“Elise, kukunin kang ninang ng Ate Marian mo..“

Sabi ko naman (Siyempre Pabiro), “Na Naman? Baka hindi na ako maka-pag-asawa niyan!” (Mayroon daw kasing kasabihan na pagmarami kang inaanak sa binyag, tapos bata ka pa, hindi ka na makaka-pag-asawa..hehe).

Naman kasi, mga 6 na ata inaanak ko (kasama na yung upcoming, kung sakali), tapos tipong hindi ko pa memorize kung sino sila. (Huwag Tularan) Ilang taon pa lang ako ngayon, 19. Kamusta naman yun diba? Nasa Kolehiyo palang ako, palighasan na kami ng tatay ko sa paramihan ng inaanak.

Eh anu ba ang criteria sa pagkuha ng Ninang/Ninong? Bukod sa Close mo, eh dapat kukunin mo yung mga hahaligi sayo pag na-tsugi ka na, yung mga bright ang future kumbaga. In other words, yung mga may iibigay sa inaanak tuwing Pasko.

Eh di ibig sabihin, mga tipong 6 na silang nag-iisip na bright ang aking future. Bakit nga naman hindi? Sa La Salle nag-aaral, tapos Engineer pa pag-nagkataon.

Naku kung alam lang nila. Nakakalungkot mang isipin, pero hindi ko parin nakikita ang sarili ko na engineer. Nakakainis lang kasi parang pressured kang maging successful sa buhay…eh malay mo ba kung hindi..

Nanay ko sinasabi sa tatay ko, “Naku yang anak mo, pag-sumweldo, 40,000 buwan-buwan! Bawi na agad yung pinang-tuition mo…” Medyo lang kasi, yung buong pinag-retirohan ng tatay ko, napunta sa tuition ko. So in other words, kailangan maging successful akong enhinyero para maka-bawi man lang sila. Dagdag mo pa yang mga nanay na kinukuha ka sa binyag. Eh muhkang sa lagay ko ngayon, na hindi parin ako ganun ka-compatible sa course ko, at malabo pang manyari na ako’y maging isang succesful engineer.

Nakaka-asar lang, kasi pressured kang mag-succeed. Eh paano kung hindi magkaganun diba? Hayy naku. 

Antipolo in the year 2006

 

 

 

 

 

 
 
Yep. Its one of those traditions again. Every last day of April, we wake up early (as in 4:00 AM early) to go to Antipolo church in celebration of the Main Man’s birthday..haha, birthday kasi ng tatay ko.

Here are some pictures I took.^^

One of my cousins got victimized by those selling scapulars on the church’s entrance. He bought a little Sto.Nino and then suddenly this lady came to him saying that the Sto.Nino statue he bought should come with Scapulars. He accepted the scapulars believing that a donation of 5 pesos was enough. The lady refused to accept his 5 pesos and said that he should pay 100 pesos for the scapulars, saying that “Hindi pwedeng isoli yan! Karma ang abot mo niyan!”..and so there was nothing he can do but give 100 pesos to the lady.

Dami talagang manloloko sa pilipinas.

Ambisiosa.

Its not something bad, i’ve just done a lot of thinking and realized how confused I am.

It all started with my unusually long internet surfing. I’ve read my RELSFOR assignment and I’ve got nothing else to do, and I was on the verge of writing an album review of Up Dharma Down’s Fragmented. In order to get started, I was reading other album reviews on different blogs, and of course these blogs have links to other blogs. In no time, I was blog-hopping, something I haven’t done in a long time.

I read not just any other blog, but celebrity blogs, blogs of OPM personalities in particular. (Well, I do that after going to my friend’s blogs) Earlier, I just visited Jugs Jugeta’s Blog (of Itchyworms! fame), Francis Reyes’ LJ (The Dawn guitarist, NU Jock) linked to his’ girlfriends’ LJ (and by the way, ANG DIYOSA NG GIRLFRIEND NIYA! Lucky Guy!) , Mich Dulces’ LJ (PBB housemate, Death by Tampon Vocalist), Armi Millares’ LJ (Up Dharma Down Vocalist)…and that’s about it. I could’ve read Quark Henares’ LJ (Indie Filmaker and host of NU Let’s Fun) but there weren’t any updates yet.  It was fun reading accounts about their own little world, playing in gigs, appearing in Noontime Shows, hanging out with fellow musicians, going to other countries to meet other Internationally Acclaimed Rockstars, meeting local TV and film celebrities, their opinions about the music industry, their own little lakad’s with their friends known and unknown…I was definitely engrossed.

For me they’re like this simple-intellectual-elite part of the middle-class soceity, famous and idolized among the masas, respected by the middle people, socialistas and big-time personalities.  They’re not like your unreacheable artistas whose every move gets scrutinized by people because they’re exposed to the public eye, and worse, get misjudged for their actions. They’re famous, and yet they’re real, they can do anything they want, and still not judged as being posers (unlike actors/actresses who sideline as vocalists). They’re your ordinary, abot-kamay personalities with humble beginnings and yet they hangout with those who have high stature.

I guess I’m fond of high soceity, and maybe somehow I want to be part of that group. I get lost in reading the pages of Cosmopolitan,Metro, Metro Soceity, Philippine Tatler, People, PULP, wishing that I could give away gifts suggested by these magazines amouting to 50k  Php and above without a cinch, hoping to attend those exclusive parties, concerts and events. Rub elbows with fashion, entertainment,and music personalities. I want to be like Tim Yap or Tessa Prieto or Quark Henares or Nina Sandejas or Ebe Dancel or Rissa Samson (ako model? haha, asa)

Ang elitista ko pala.

But then again, Ako’y isang ordinaryong mambabasa.

Nakapag-aral sa exclusive all-girls school dahil sa sweldo ng nanay at tatay ko. Nakapag-aral sa La Salle dahil sa pinag-retirohan ng tatay ko. Nagbabasa ng scanlation ng Naruto. Mahilig sa Anime. Estudyante ng ECE, na sobrang walang kinalaman sa entertainment industry, kaya kung maging successful engineer man ako, hindi ako lalabas sa soceity pages. Hindi ka-talentado para maging musikero. Isang hamak na taga-pakinig lamang.  Kabarkada ko mga Engineer din, mga simplemeng mamamayan, hindi taga-Forbes, San Miguel Village, o kung saan man. Kaparehas ko, taga-Pandacan. Nag-jjeep. Laging walang pera. Nag-sttutter pag nag-iingles, mayabang at diretso pag nananagalog.

In short, I’m ordinary and not-really-that-gifted/talented. Nakakagulo kasi hindi ko talaga alam kung anung gusto ko sa buhay. Kung gusto ko bang yumaman at maging sikat na pwede na akong lumabas sa soceity pages kahit mukha akong basura, o maging isang ordinaryong mamamayan, enhinyera, hindi kilala, kagaya ng buhay ko ngayon…

O di kaya, itapon ang paghahangad sa soceity pages, at maglingkod sa mga kapus-palad, katulad ng plano sating lahat ng Panginoon.

Ambisiosa. Ambisiosa talaga ako. 

Just Friends..

I was supposed to post this sometime yesterday…but I ran out of prepaid credits..hehe..beggar meh..

Me and my secondary college friends (they coined the word themselves, so don’t sue me) had this lakad earlier, we watched Just Friends at G4. I was kinda guilty going to G4 because I had to borrow money from our store (I returned half of it when I got homeT_T).

Before the movie I was treated to a little story-telling session involving real people (i.e, the story was not real, the characters otherwise) over sisig and pasta. It reminded me of those make-up stories we talked about over the phone back in high school with my primary high school friends. I was amused by the fact that guys do it too…hehe, all the while I thought it was a girl thing.  The story itself was amusing, they were creating this little world of their own with matching background music and setting, something like a verbal screenplay. They were all excited about it and I guess they find it enjoyable creating those stories, especially when they involve people they know..haha I wasn’t even spared~!

It’ll probably be one of those things I’ll miss once I graduate.

But anyway, we watched this movie which of course, struck some nerves, and probably the reason why this particular secondary friend really wanted to watch it. The movie was fun and simple, the plot was simple, though I find the ‘I swear’ scenes a bit…corny after a while. And it also made me wonder if we’re underestimating pop stars, that they just want to share the music and that the record companies are to blame for making people think the way they think pop stars are….

Nah.

After the movie, we therefore conclude:
       Everything is decided when one person tells the other person the way he or she feels.
If the reaction is negative, sorry, if not, then good for you.

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Summer classes starts tommorrow…2 hours of religion classes starting at 8 am.

Currently having LSS over UpDharmaDown’s Oo.

O happy day. 

Some Ideas

I did an (almost)General Cleaning of our room today, and that’s what kept me busy from morning ’till dinnertime. I was literally coated in dust, since I’ve got to dive under the bed to bring out all the plastic bags kept there by my mom. I dunno why she keeps all that junk under the bed, all those past bills, invitations, etc. What’s silly is that she keeps on buying cleanser refills (The Ajax ones) when all the while there were plenty of it under the bed. T_T

It was kinda overwhelming at first because there was so much to organize, what to do first, should I bring this down or shold I sweep the dust first, should I throw this out or what. I wasn’t even allowed to bring down the casseroles she kept under the bed. The best thing that happended was finding new school supplies under the bed, especially the Steadler Drawing Pens they bought from Canada.

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A conversation with a friend made me realize why rock appeals to more teens than say, RnB or Hiphop. (Well, at least I think so)…its because its so rare to find RnB and Hiphop songs talking about depression and frustration towards oneself. Usually, RnB songs talk about Love and Break-Ups, Hip Hop talks about Partying,Sex, or on a more serious note, racial discrimination and social issues, but rarely about the self.

 Simplest example of a rock song that talks about frustration is Simple Plan’s perfect and Good Charlottes’ Hold On. It might be pop, but its still rock. ^_^

Moved?

Ellow everyone. As I’ve said, eto na po ang bagong tahanan ng Dos.Uno.Quatro. Bakit? Bukod sa paminsan-minsang hassle sa paguupdate ng layout..ay mabuti naring dito at may sariling gallery.

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